Anatomy Scan

I have had my 20 week anatomy scan, and "she" is doing fine. Definately team pink. It's great news but that old cautious side of me still holds on. I hold my breathe every time they begin the ultrasound or use a doppler until I see or hear a heartbeat. I know it's going to be a long 20 more weeks. I want to feel free to plan, and look and purchase baby things, but I am still scared to. The only thing that I have managed to do is look at names. I have actually found the names that I like. I just won't feel safe until she is in my arms alive and healthy.